By Julie Tu
This is grace:
I thought contact
always meant
pain
but when we walk
you take my hand,
I look at you;
I'm smiling.
This is grace:
I thought contact
always meant
pain
but when we walk
you take my hand,
I look at you;
I'm smiling.
You sped until a skyline disappeared behind us. From the edge of a field we watched a sunset. My feet were propped up on your dashboard, my knees drawn to my chest. You laid your head on the wheel.
He broke my heart; you heard it. I used to be alive; you saw it.
You loved her even then. I cried for what I no longer believed in.
This was Spring of two and a half years ago. When I became another bitch on a list, all I said was, “You told me so.” When you insulted me further, I thanked you and left. You called me immediately to apologize. I asked you to forgive me instead, I should have listened.
April 12, 2016~ I fought that night.
The fight was in the bedroom of my childhood home, in the bed that I’ve slept in since teenhood. I laid down on that bed at 12:03 a.m., reciting Psalm 4:8, fluffing my pillows, closing my eyes.
The time has come... You better not never tell nobody but God... It was the best of times, it was the worst of times... Once upon a time...
Read MoreYou trade your trash for mine
and it’s a burdensome exchange
but when our mess combines
it forms a bridge of pain
which hope then travels by
and satisfies; selves lain
bare with words known dry
compared to summer city’s rain
inside your chest and mine.